Monday, August 22, 2011
Ten days ago I had surgery for uterine cancer. The surgeon said it looked like he expected, early stage, contained and probably there would be no need for follow up treatment. Good news, right? Okay, that's how I'm taking it. I won't know for sure until my follow up appointment tomorrow and receive the pathology report, but I am feeling very positive. The interesting thing is that I wonder if that's how I'm supposed to feel. I have had a variety of responses. Most people downplay the whole thing and even the doctor said at our first appointment, "Well, if you're going to have cancer, this is the one to get!" Okay...I guess. A lot of folks tell me stories of relatives who have had the same thing with good outcomes. Others tell me cheerfully that their (insert relative relationship) who died of cancer x started with this one. Hmmmm, and that is encouraging to me because????? This is probably all coming up for me because of a card from a friend with a flyer to the Wellness Community, a non-profit cancer support group in our area. Today, and if the results are as expected tomorrow, I just don't feel I need a support group. Not even sure I would feel "worthy" to enter into that. Now, if they could fix insomnia and other side issues of surgery and major hormonal shifts, I'd be there in a flash! Otherwise, it feels like my faith communities and friends and family will be support enough. On the other hand, I'm open, for tomorrow, that could all change.